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The Scandal of Grace {The Conclusion: Nothing Too Dirty}

So it’s been six years since my affair and since Anthony and I began our journey to heal our marriage and to create a brand new love. It has been (and is still) the hardest yet most beautiful and worth it journey of our lives and I really wanted to do something to symbolize the… Continue reading The Scandal of Grace {The Conclusion: Nothing Too Dirty}

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The Scandal of Grace {Anatomy of an Affair: Part 1}

You can catch up on our marriage story here. We were the couple with the marriage others envied. By our late twenties we were earning enough to live comfortably, we had the little white house in the suburbs, new cars we loved, two beautiful kids, and were even heavily involved in ministry at our church.… Continue reading The Scandal of Grace {Anatomy of an Affair: Part 1}

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The Scandal of Grace {Tell Me Every Little Thing}

You can catch up on our “marriage story” here.  “Tell me anything and everything. I want to know you, everything little about you. Even the secret corners of your heart that feels hardest to let be seen and known. I want to know those places most of all.” Fast forward to our 15th anniversary, February… Continue reading The Scandal of Grace {Tell Me Every Little Thing}

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The Scandal of Grace {His Side of the Story: How We Healed}

{You can catch up on Anthony’s first post “Leave Or Love” here} …..But how? How could we go on, much less heal from here? It would start with just one offering of kindness and selfless grace that I didn’t always feel like giving, at a time. Because when my heart was crushed, if I was going… Continue reading The Scandal of Grace {His Side of the Story: How We Healed}

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The Scandal of Grace {Can I Come Home?}

In the months after the affair what I struggled with most was not feeling like I had a right to be home, under his roof, in his bed. Who was I and why did I deserve grace? Guilt. Shame. Condemnation. Self-pity. Self-righteous pride. “How could I have done that? How could I have allowed this… Continue reading The Scandal of Grace {Can I Come Home?}

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The Scandal of Grace {Beautifully Broken}

It sounds terribly dramatic, but there were days I wanted to die. I still can’t explain all of why, but I felt soiled and ashamed – fallen. I didn’t want to live anymore. I went to bed at night asking God to have mercy on me and just let me stay asleep and not wake up.… Continue reading The Scandal of Grace {Beautifully Broken}

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The Scandal Of Grace {The Rejection}

The days following my admission of the affair would remind us that though there is freedom in facing our demons and coming clean, though there is grace, the damage that any kind of unfaithfulness and failure creates, leaves behind a great big gaping wound in our hearts that feels impossible to mend. It certainly had… Continue reading The Scandal Of Grace {The Rejection}

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The Scandal Of Grace {Broken Together}

I don’t know how many hours I laid in the dark alone that night, but it felt like an eternity. I awoke to a soft whisper that said, “Come down with me, let’s go to bed and get some rest.” He had come back home to me after a few hours with a trusted friend.… Continue reading The Scandal Of Grace {Broken Together}

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The Scandal Of Grace {The Affair}

It was just six days before Christmas. To everyone on the outside, our lives probably seemed sickeningly close to perfect. But what no one knew is that on this particular night, I found myself sitting alone in my car in the driveway of our home all brightly lit up for the season. What I or… Continue reading The Scandal Of Grace {The Affair}