At first glance, most people would believe I’ve got really got it together in this area and have no reasons to feel the way I’m about to share with you. That couldn’t be further from the truth. Can I just be really honest and let you in on something I’ve been struggling with lately?… Continue reading When The Weight Of Motherhood Crushes Us
There is no image to capture this moment, because nobody captures the real life moments where things are not lovely and life is not pretty. But leave it to me to believe we should talk about them anyways. Because this stuff, this is the real life stuff that connects us all together. ————————————- It… Continue reading On Days When We’re A Hot Mess Breakdown
It sounds terribly dramatic, but there were days I wanted to die. I still can’t explain all of why, but I felt soiled and ashamed – fallen. I didn’t want to live anymore. I went to bed at night asking God to have mercy on me and just let me stay asleep and not wake up.… Continue reading The Scandal of Grace {Beautifully Broken}
The days following my admission of the affair would remind us that though there is freedom in facing our demons and coming clean, though there is grace, the damage that any kind of unfaithfulness and failure creates, leaves behind a great big gaping wound in our hearts that feels impossible to mend. It certainly had… Continue reading The Scandal Of Grace {The Rejection}
That first night alone in our hotel room was heartbreaking and painful in every way. There was nothing warm and fuzzy about this little spur of the moment getaway together. It was the dead of winter and everything felt cold. It was all so much deeper than just the affair alone, we both knew it.… Continue reading The Scandal Of Grace {Encountering Grace}
I don’t know how many hours I laid in the dark alone that night, but it felt like an eternity. I awoke to a soft whisper that said, “Come down with me, let’s go to bed and get some rest.” He had come back home to me after a few hours with a trusted friend.… Continue reading The Scandal Of Grace {Broken Together}
I had made up my mind. It was time to confess. Time to get free from the dirty pit I found myself in. As much as I wanted to be clean again, I knew that there was only one way to break the grip of the dark secret I had been harboring inside, for good.… Continue reading The Scandal Of Grace {The Confession}
Part 1 {The Affair} Part 2 {Running & Hiding} Part 3 {The Tension Between Light & Dark} “If I go up to heaven, you are there. If I make my bed in hell, still you are there.” Psalm 139:8 I had made my own bed in hell, which adequately describes how I was feeling inside. … Continue reading The Scandal Of Grace {When I Make My Bed In Hell}
Part 1 {The Affair} Part 2 {Running & Hiding} The next days following that first night would continue to feel like a whirlwind of about every emotion I had ever experienced up until this point. My husband began working out of town on weekdays, I was left alone again and things were about to get… Continue reading The Scandal Of Grace {The Tension Between Light & Dark}
Read Part 1 {The Affair} here I must have sat there in our driveway that night for a good half hour before mustering up enough courage to move my body out of the car and up the walkway that would lead to our living room where I knew my husband would be waiting up for… Continue reading The Scandal Of Grace {Running & Hiding}
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