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The Scandal of Grace {Leave or Love}

You can catch up on our story from the beginning here. I didn’t know it yet, but this was the day my wife would tell me she had been having an affair with another man. As I was leaving work that afternoon a co-worker asked me why I was smiling and what I had to… Continue reading The Scandal of Grace {Leave or Love}

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The Scandal of Grace {Can I Come Home?}

In the months after the affair what I struggled with most was not feeling like I had a right to be home, under his roof, in his bed. Who was I and why did I deserve grace? Guilt. Shame. Condemnation. Self-pity. Self-righteous pride. “How could I have done that? How could I have allowed this… Continue reading The Scandal of Grace {Can I Come Home?}

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When The Weight Of Motherhood Crushes Us

  At first glance, most people would believe I’ve got really got it together in this area and have no reasons to feel the way I’m about to share with you. That couldn’t be further from the truth. Can I just be really honest and let you in on something I’ve been struggling with lately?… Continue reading When The Weight Of Motherhood Crushes Us

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On Days When We’re A Hot Mess Breakdown

There is no image to capture this moment, because nobody captures the real life moments where things are not lovely and life is not pretty. But leave it to me to believe we should talk about them anyways. Because this stuff, this is the real life stuff that connects us all together.                              ————————————- It… Continue reading On Days When We’re A Hot Mess Breakdown

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The Scandal of Grace {Beautifully Broken}

It sounds terribly dramatic, but there were days I wanted to die. I still can’t explain all of why, but I felt soiled and ashamed – fallen. I didn’t want to live anymore. I went to bed at night asking God to have mercy on me and just let me stay asleep and not wake up.… Continue reading The Scandal of Grace {Beautifully Broken}

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The Scandal Of Grace {The Rejection}

The days following my admission of the affair would remind us that though there is freedom in facing our demons and coming clean, though there is grace, the damage that any kind of unfaithfulness and failure creates, leaves behind a great big gaping wound in our hearts that feels impossible to mend. It certainly had… Continue reading The Scandal Of Grace {The Rejection}

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The Scandal Of Grace {Encountering Grace}

That first night alone in our hotel room was heartbreaking and painful in every way. There was nothing warm and fuzzy about this little spur of the moment getaway together. It was the dead of winter and everything felt cold. It was all so much deeper than just the affair alone, we both knew it.… Continue reading The Scandal Of Grace {Encountering Grace}